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双语:灵媒 -- 一群有特异心灵感应的人

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十子彩虹 时间:2010-05-02 13:01  181次点击 | 0 关注

The oddest thing happened when I announced publicly in 2006 that I was a psychic medium. All hell broke loose in my personal and professional life. And I had no idea that that was going to happen (oh, the irony!). Perhaps it was because I expected that people would judge me for who I was and not based on some preconceived idea about psychics. Oh yes, I learned a lot about judgment in a very short period of time. For anyone who is thinking about coming out as a psychic, this article is for you! And for anyone who has ever come out against a social norm, you’ll also get some benefit from reading about my experience.

First, I announced on my blog that I was developing my psychic abilities to a point where I could actually begin doing readings for people. I blogged about my awakening and my experience on the Criss Angel MindFreak show. I was off and running, I was happy, congruent, and really proud of myself. At the same time this was happening, I was still running my online magazine, VegFamily. I was also doing web consulting and programming, and I had an independent publishing company. I announced on VegFamily that I was a psychic medium and that if anyone wanted a reading, to go to my new site. This was the beginning of the end of my naiveté.

I immediately got a bunch of nasty emails from readers who told me I was doing the devil’s work, and that the Bible expressly prohibited them from interacting with me in any way, shape, or form. They told me they were going to stop reading the magazine, even though they’d been loyal readers for years and found the information great. That surprised me.

Then I got an email from a woman who had contributed several articles to the site over the years – a woman I had exchanged many pleasant emails with – who asked me to remove all of her articles from the site because I was going against the Lord and working for Satan. I wrote back to her for clarification since I had no awareness of what she was talking about. She sent back a lot of quoted scripture and there is indeed a passage in the Bible that says you’re not supposed to truck with mediums and you should stone them on sight. I’m glad she lived in another state. ;) I got into it with her for a few exchanges because I wanted to sincerely understand how she could be my friend one day and the next want to shun me. For her, what it came down to was that she was a devout follower of the Bible and the Bible expressly stated to her that she could not have any contact with me. I wished her well in her life and we parted ways permanently. I think what shocked me most was that I felt I was being unfairly and harshly judged by vegans, who were no strangers to harsh judgment from family, friends, and society. Shouldn’t they have known better?

Next, a couple of my web clients stopped doing business with me because I was a psychic. And some members of the vegan community with whom I’d been doing business suddenly stopped responding to my emails. None of them called me devil-spawn, they just drifted away or gave me the cold shoulder. So coming out publicly as a psychic negatively impacted my businesses and to some extent my income.

Then there were the friends. I don’t have many religious friends so I wasn’t expecting any kind of negative response from them regarding my new profession. I was wrong though. There was a new problem to contend with. It took me a while to figure out why some of my friends and acquaintances were treating me so coldly. I found out quite by accident that they were wondering why I’d turned to a life of crime. Yes, crime! Apparently, and I’m not sure you’re aware of this, all psychics are frauds, charlatans, and criminals who prey on people who are gullible enough to think that psychic abilities and talking to dead people is even possible. Yes, that’s right. These people thought I was actually, and quite deliberately, turning to a life of crime. I can’t blame them for not wanting to associate with a criminal, except for one problem, I wasn’t a criminal! This actually hurt me a lot more than the religious issue. I’m used to some religious people turning a blind eye to their own intuition in favor of what’s fed to them via holy scripture. I’m not used to being thought of as a criminal though. That took some time for me to digest. Rather than try to understand how I was developing my psychic abilities, they found it much more believable that I had simply decided to rip people off. Some friends, right? I recall one day asking one of my friends if he thought I was fraudulently ripping people off and he said, “I know you believe you’re psychic, and I know you’re not trying to rip people off, but everyone knows psychic abilities aren’t real so I think you’re probably deluded but not intentionally trying to hurt anyone.” Gee, thanks. Over the years he’s really come around, though, and thinks I just have an uncanny ability to accurately name people’s dead relatives and tell people what they do for a living without them telling me first. He uses words like “lucky guess” and “coincidence” a lot. ;)

I started to have concerns about even calling myself a psychic because of all the negative connotations built into the group. To be fair, there really are a lot of frauds, charlatans, and criminals in this industry, and that’s a real shame, but let’s not throw the baby out with the bath water. Not everyone who claims to be psychic is a criminal or fraud. It reminds me of when I joined a sorority and my non-sorority friends thought that all sorority girls were vapid sluts only interested in hair, make-up and the size of frat boy bulges. Lordy, people.

So, long story short, I lost a lot of friends and apparently credibility when I came out as a psychic. It wasn’t all bad though. There were some unexpected positives.

My family has been incredibly supportive and proud of my work as a psychic medium. My dad is so cute, he tells everyone about his psychic daughter. He carries my cards around with him and gives them to everyone: the dental hygienist, the mail carrier, his business contacts, and friends. In fact, my mom had to tell him to tone it down a bit as they came to find what I found, that some of these people thought I was a criminal too. I think my dad was just as surprised to find this out as I was. They started having uncomfortable situations with their own friends when my name was brought up.

My sister has run into this problem too when she tells her friends that she has a psychic sister. They all want to know why I haven’t won the lottery yet. So for some, it’s just purely the fact that they know nothing about how psychic abilities work that cause them to suspect I am being less than honest. I think the fact that my family has known about my psychic gifts for my entire life has helped them see that becoming a professional psychic was a natural progression for me. They know I’m not a criminal or fraud and it’s hard for them understand why others think I am.

My aunt and cousin are also exceptionally supportive of me. Sometimes when I’m in Los Angeles I do my in-person readings in their home. Steve’s family has also been supportive. I was concerned as they are very religious, but apparently their priest told them it was okay as I am using my gift to help others and because I believe my gift comes from God/Source, as I wrote about in my blog entry, But Where’s the Love?

I told Steve at one point that coming out publicly as a psychic medium must be somewhat similar to how homosexuals feel when they come out publicly. You have to deal with and accept the fact that some people will shun you because of their beliefs about your “group.” I have great compassion and respect for people who proudly share their real selves with the world, knowing it will probably create a disconnect with some people in their lives. But it is only by fully sharing who we really are that we can begin to bring down the walls of preconception and challenge people to get to know us before deciding what we are.

If you are a fellow psychic, what has been your experience of coming out publicly? Or do you only tell certain people? What reactions have you received, and how have you dealt with any negative judgment? If you’ve come out as a homosexual or anything that is sometimes perceived as an abomination or against the Bible or social norms, what has been your experience? What words of wisdom can you share with others who are considering coming out?

All I can say is that coming out of my own closet was really eye-opening for me. I discovered that even intelligent people can make assumptions that are not based on personal observation but just on preconceived ideas about a group. This is wrong. It’s wrong for all of us. Guard against this at all costs as it’s very damaging to society as a whole.

To the budding young psychics out there who are considering becoming a professional psychic, know going into this that you may lose some friends, that some people who claim to love you may disconnect from you. But if your heart is aligned with this truth you have nothing to be ashamed of. Let people have their reactions, let them walk their own path, but don’t hide who you are. We can’t change people’s beliefs about psychics by staying hidden or underground. Be honest and forthright in all your dealings. Perhaps in time we can repair our damaged reputation, and help people see we are truly aligned with love. Even with all the negativity, the loss of friends, the damaged relationships, the harsh and critical emails from total strangers, I wouldn’t trade my path for anything. It’s been an incredibly rich and rewarding journey, really a dream come true.

Now where did I put that broom? I’ve got some flying to do. :)

 


2006年,我公开承认自己是灵媒后,最奇怪的事情就开始发生了。无论我的生活还是职业生涯都变得一团糟,而且我对将要发生的事情还一无所知(噢,这真是讽刺!)。或许这是因为我希望人们不要带着对灵媒的偏见来评判我是个什么样的人。哦,是的,我很了解在很短的时间内就作出判断这种事情。这篇文章是为那些想知道灵媒是什么样子的人写的。而对于那些曾经反对社会规范的人们,我想或许你们也能从我的经历得到一些帮助。

首先,我在博客上宣布我正在提高我的感应能力,以便于能够真正的为人们预言。我在博客上写了我是怎样意识到自己的能力以及我在Criss Angel MindFreak表演中的经历。我开始发掘自己能力,我对此感到快乐,觉得这很适合自己,并真的感到自豪。在此同时,我仍然在运行我的网络杂志《素食家庭》,我也做网页咨询和规划,并且有一个独立的出版公司。我在《素食家庭》上宣布我是一个灵媒,如果有人想让我做一下预言可以去我的新网站。从此我天真地想法开始终结。

我马上受到了一大堆读者的垃圾邮件,他们说我是在从事魔鬼的工作,并且圣经中有明文规定,他们不能与我有任何方式、性质、形式的接触。他们说尽管自己是多年来的忠实读者,但由于问题的严重性,他们还是会终止阅读杂志。这让我大吃一惊。

然后我收到一封女人的邮件——多年来她为我的网站贡献了很多文章,并且和我交换过很多次愉快的邮件,她让我把网站上所有她的文章撤掉,因为我正在违背上帝,并开始为撒旦服务。我回邮件要她澄清一下,因为我不知道她在说什么。然后她发送给我很多圣经里面的引述,在圣经中确实有那么一段说,你不应该与灵媒打交道,并且已看到他们就要向他们扔石头。幸好她住在别的国家,呵呵。我跟她交换了多次邮件,因为我想真诚地了解,是否有那么一天她会成为我的朋友并且开始相信我。对她来说,最终结果就是她不能与我有任何接触,因为她是个虔诚的基督徒,而圣经又已经明确地告诉她了。我祝她一切如意然后与她分道扬镳了。我想让我最震惊的是,我竟然收到了素食者的不公平的、严厉的批判,因为他们对于来自于家庭、朋友、社会的严厉的批判并不陌生。难道他们不应该更理解我吗?

接着,一对网络客户因为我是个巫师而停止同我做生意。一些原来也同我有生意往来的素食社团的成员也突然开始不再回应我的电子邮件。他们都没有叫我魔鬼之子,他们只是远远地躲开或者对我不理不睬。所以公开承认自己是灵媒给我的生意造成很多负面的影响,并在一定程度上影响了我的收入。

再然后就是朋友们了。我宗教意义上的朋友不多,所以我觉得朋友们不会对我的新职业有什么消极反应。然而我错了。又有一个新的难题需要我来应付。一些朋友和熟人开始对我很冷淡,这让我费解了很长一段时间。我是在偶然间才发现原来他们是不明白为什么我就成了一个生活的罪人。是的,罪人!不知道你是否意识到了一点,就是所有的灵媒都显然是骗子、江湖郎中、罪犯,无情的掠夺那些容易受骗的人,因为他们觉得可能真的存在心灵感应,甚至或许还可以跟死人说话。是的,就是这样,这些人就是认为我实际上,并且完全是自愿出于自愿,成为了生活的罪人。他们不想和罪犯有关系我可以理解,但是有一个问题,那就是我不是罪犯。这给我造成的伤害已经不仅仅是宗教问题。我可以忍受人们对自己的真实感受视而不见,而只关注与圣经里面的条文。但是我无法忍受人们把我当做罪犯。这件事对我来说很难消化。相对于努力了解我怎样提高心灵感应能力,他们发现相信我只是想骗钱更容易些。是这样吧,朋友们?我记得有一天问一个朋友他是否认为我在诈骗人们的钱财,他说:“我知道你相信自己是个灵媒,我也知道你不是想骗钱,但是人们都知道并不存在什么特异功能,所以我觉得你可能是在骗人,但是却并不想故意伤害别人。”哎呀,真是谢谢。这么多年,他是真的清醒了啊,觉得我只是有那么一点不同寻常的能力,让我能够在别人告诉我之前准确的说出他们已经去世的亲戚的名字以及他们生前从事的事业。他经常用“侥幸猜中”、“巧合”来形容这些事情。

我甚至开始但是是否还应该称自己是灵媒,因为大家对这一行业有太多的负面印象。公平的说,在这一行中确实有很多的骗子、庸医、罪人,这是这一行真正的耻辱,但是我们对这一行业全盘否认啊。并不是每个称自己是灵媒的人都是罪犯或骗子。这让我想起我参加联谊会时,我的那些非联谊会的朋友们会觉得所有联谊会上的女孩都是乏味的荡妇,只关心头发、化妆以及联席会上男孩子那个东西的大小。天啊,人类啊。

所以长话短说,自从宣布自己是灵媒后我失去了很多朋友以及信任。但是也不是所有事都这么糟糕,还是有一些意想不到的支持的。

我的家人给与了我难以想象的支持,并对我做灵媒感到自豪。我的父亲是那么的可爱,他跟每个都说他这个灵媒女儿的事情。他随身带着我的名片发给见到的每个人:牙医、邮递员、生意伙伴、朋友等等。以至于我妈妈不得不提醒他要注意用词温和一些,因为他们可能也会碰到我碰到过得那些情况,也就是那些人会觉得我是个罪犯。我想爸爸发现这一点的时候一定跟我一样的惊讶。之后每当和朋友们在一起提到我时,他们就会不自在。

我妹妹在告诉朋友自己有个灵媒姐姐时也遇到了同样的问题。他们都想知道为什么我还没获得奖金。所以对一些人来说这绝对是事实,就是他们对灵魂感应怎么运作根本一无所知,所以他们才会怀疑我在说谎。我认为我的家人之所以会觉得成为一个专业的灵媒对我来说是一个自然的过程,是因为他们从我一出生就知道我有这方面的特异功能。他们知道我不是罪犯或者骗子,而要理解为什么别人会这样认为对他们来说也是很困难的。

我的姑妈和表姐也非常支持我。呆在洛杉矶时,有时候我会在她们家里当面做预言。史蒂夫一家也一直支持我。我曾经很担心,因为他们都是很虔诚的教徒,但显然他们的牧师告诉他们这没什么,因为我是用自己的天赋帮助别人,并且我相信我的天赋来自于上帝,就像我在博客里写的那样。但是爱在哪里?

曾有一天,我跟史蒂夫说公开承认自己是灵媒肯定多多少少的和公开承认自己是同性恋的感觉差不多。你必须面对并接受这样一个事实,一些人会因为对你们这个“团体”的观点而避开你。我非常同情、尊重那些能够骄傲的让全世界知道他们的真实自我的人,他们都知道一旦坦白就意味着可能会与生活中的一些人断绝往来。但是只有完全展示出真正的自我,我们才能够推倒偏见之墙,才能够要求人们先了解我们再作判断。

如果你是个灵媒,在公开后有什么经历?或者你是不是只是告诉了某些人?人们的反应如何?你又怎么面对那些负面批判?如果你已经公开了自己是同性恋或者任何被认为是可憎的、或者反宗教、反社会的人,你又有什么经历?对那些正考虑坦白的人们你有什么忠告?

我能说的只是对我来说把秘密说出来真的让我开了眼界。我发现即使是聪明人他们做判断也可能不是建立在亲自了解的基础上,而是建立在成见上。这是不对的。如论我们谁这样做都是不对的。我们要警惕这种行为,不惜一切代价,因为它严重危害着我们整个的社会。

对于那些正在考虑成为专业灵媒的初露头角的年轻人,一定要知道如果走这条路你可能将会失去一些朋友,那些原来说爱你的人可能也会离开你。但是如果你的心坚持真理,那你就没有什么好羞愧的。他们爱怎么认为就怎么认为,随他们去,只要不隐藏自己就好了。人们的观念不会因为我们藏起来或者躲起来了就会改变。无论与谁交往都要诚实坦率。也许会有那么一天我们能够恢复我们的声誉,帮助人们看到我们真的与爱同在。即使被人否定、失去朋友、关系破裂、受到陌生人恶意非难的邮件,我也不会改变我要走的路。这是一段让人难以置信得、丰富多彩的、值得去走的旅程,是真正的梦想成真。

现在我的扫帚在哪里?我要拿出来飞一飞。

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